One of the worst feelings in the world is having to doubt something you thought was unquestionable. I’ve been doubting everything lately, especially myself which let me tell you; is not something I ever do. I have faults but I’ve always been incredibly confident, but false and cruel expectations have sent my confidence right down the drain. I guess it’s alright though, I spent years feeling numb. Maybe it’s good to feel a little heartbroken now and then. It’s good to know that something inside of me still cares. It’s how I know there are things for me in this world that still matter, that are still worth fighting for, but how do you know when it’s time to stop fighting and more on?
Disappointment that’s how I’d describe 2017 so far. Don’t get me wrong, so many wonderful things have happened and I’ve experienced so much but man…disappointments are lurking around every corner I turn. Maybe my standards are too high? But the thing is, I don’t think they’re high enough. Sometimes I’m not entirely sure who I am or how I got here. Shakespeare once said, “Expectation is the root of all heartache.” I think he was on to something.